July Rain

I was on the verge of falling asleep with my blanket tossed somewhere on my bed to endure the unusual hot July.  My playlist was a mess, playing KPOP and some American music randomly.

When The Script’s We Cry started playing, I thought that it needed to rain.  I struggled to find a better position on my bed.  I am weird like that when I could have the whole bed for myself, I still found it hard to sleep.   It was the first day of July and I thought that it should really rain.  I don’t even get why that thought keeps pushing into my mind.  That’s when I moved all my pillows under my feet and felt one fell.   I didn’t bother to pick it up because there were three pillows left under my feet.

I was satisfied with my position and was starting to doze off but I still thought that it should rain because it’s the first day of July after all.  I didn’t notice that Britt Nicole’s Headphones was already playing until a soft tap on my roof caught my attention.  Everything seemed quiet except for Britt Nicole who was making wonders in my room with her voice and the soft taps on my roof and windows.

As  the soft taps became rhythmic, I somehow felt relieved and decided to pick up the fallen pillow at the foot of my bed.  I didn’t sleep for my drowsiness was apparently washed away by the soft rain.  I scanned my shelf for a good book to read but somehow I became contented as I sat on the edge of my bed, listening to country music blending to the rain’s rhythm.  I smiled to myself and thought how utterly blessed I have been.

I thanked God for the rain.  It gave me the simple joy and the time to reflect on my actions for the past months.  He has been very good to me.  Even my playlist seemed to come in sync with what I was feeling, switching songs just by Taylor Swift, Britt Nicole and Bethany Dillon.  “Feel good” has never been come alive before that moment.  Everything seemed just too perfect.

I am not saying that my life is perfect but I am very well satisfied with what I have.  God must really love me despite the weird relationship that we have.  I blunder most of the time but He still gives me chances and opportunities more than  I deserve.  He gave me trials and there have been many times I thought that I should just give up.  But He always gives me a way out of it.

I peeked through my window after the rain subsided.  I could smell the familiar scent of earth whenever you pullout the weeds in your garden.  The leaves were greener and everything seemed cleaner, free of dust.  I could hear the birds and see some on my windowsill.  I thought of scaring them off but backed out when the thought of immersing on the blessing of the new month won the latter thought.  This month, I will be a year older and I could only think of how grateful and blessed I am at the moment.  The rain was great way to start July.  It cleans all the negativity of the previous months.


YulSic: SNSD’s Royal Couple

My first Soshi Talk and it’s about the ultimate yuri couple of SNSD and KPOP, YulSic.

YulSic is the couple name for Yuri and Jessica.  They are called “The Royal Couple” among shippers and Sone.  They are arguably the most popular couple of SNSD.

If DBSK has YunJae,  SNSD has YulSic.  It’s not a direct comparison between the two groups nor the couple themselves but it was the closest analogy to summarize YulSic.  They are known for their PDAs during every chance they get and fans were eager and happy to see this couple at it.

YulSic was the first SNSD couple I had come across.  The more I read about them, the more real I think they were.  Jessica seemed to be very touchy-feel-y whenever she was around Yuri and Yuri seemed not to mind it at all.  She seemed to be allowing Jessica to act sweet around her and this fed the fandom with more love for the couple.  This also made her as the perfect “prince” for the Ice Princess.

YulSic has the largest and most active fandom among SNSD couples.  It was hard to keep up with them and the only one to get close is TaeNy which went way before debut.  YulSic, of course, is giving fans what they wanted.  From their messages to each other to answers to answering fans’ questions to concerts, YulSic is everywhere.

Then the “cold war” happened.  I don’t exactly know when it started but it was almost post cold war when I started become a Sone.  All I could read about YulSic was when how it was before the cold war though there were said YulSic moments during concerts and fan events.  Nothing escapes from the eye of a shipper anyways.

I always considered YulSic as the top pairing in SNSD and TaeNy as the close second but because of the cold war and what’s the remains of the relationship, romantic or platonic, I never fully felt them.   Not until SNSD’s concert in Bangkok.

It was during the end speech of the girls that while Sooyoung and Tifany were talking, Jessica leaned on Yuri.  The fans just cheered even while the first two were speaking.  The girls had no idea what it was all about until YulSic was flashed on the screen and the cheers became louder and louder.  Honestly, I don’t think that the only ones who cheered were Royal Shippers.  I think others cheered because it was after all, YulSic, the Royal Couple.  Everyone didn’t necessarily waited for them to come back but seeing the couple, and YulSic at that, doing what they used to do, I think it was a moment worth cheering on.  The royal ship was still sailing.

YulSic is hard to ship these days.  May it because of their schedules or the awkwardness between them, I don’t really know why their interactions are rare.  But with the recent photoshoots where they are together, it’s not impossible to catch up with TaeNy.  And if Kwon Family will have their own sub-unit, the royal family will then, reign again.

Distance is Always A Caution

“Caution: Please Keep Your Distance”

You’ve probably seen that sign many times before.   It was made to keep yourself from being hurt.  I didn’t know how much I took that caution to heart.

For these past six years, I could easily count the friends I have made.  I could easily differentiate them from acquaintances who might be talking about me behind my back.  I think that it is one of the right moves I made when I entered college life.  It took me one semester to actually hang out with my classmates and some several months after that when I could find their jokes funny.  It wasn’t easy for me to blend in with new people as I have always known that I always talk without consideration for anyone’s feelings.  The people I was with were used to it because it was how I was honestly blunt.  College was different.  I had to face different people who may judge me differently than my other friends.

I have learned to keep words to myself, to keep laughter and shallow criticisms to myself.  I have let out fake laughs and funny thoughts were reduced to simple smiles, sneers and puffy cheeks.  It was deceiving at some point but it proved to be a catalyst to my emotional self.  I don’t know if I could handle myself if I knew that the people I consider my friends would talk behind my back and say mean things about you.  Being that kind of person and being cautious to people I barely know saved me from another yet emotional breakdown or worse, depression.

As I look back at the back-biting revelation to me just a few weeks back, I could feel no bitterness nor a vendetta against those people who have been saying oh-not-so-good things about me.  I have completely forgotten the disgust I felt for them for being obnoxious and self righteous people.  I pity them because they have made wrong friends.  Don’t they know about the Golden Rule?  Whatever happens to them are only results of their own actions.  I only hope that they still have friends like mine; friends who would stick to them like they were bound to me by the unbreakable vow.  The hurt I felt was just an initial surge but it gradually subsided.  It’s what I have prepared for.

I keep my distance because I want to be safe.  It may sound selfish but I am always willing to take the risk when it’s all worth the fall.

January – July 2012 Story Plan

Hi everyone!  SO it’s taking so long for me to update because of some undisclosed reasons.  I have some plots in mind and I am going to put some teasers and, for the unwritten ones yet, the plot and others stuff about the stories.  I have four stories in mind you may help me decide on what story I will going to update first after I am done with Tangled.

Money, Brain and Crown

Kwon Yuri, Jung Yunho and Kim Jaejoong(side pairings: SeoKyu, ChangSoo, TaeSu, ChangSic)

“I have my time on my hands.  I own a company, remember?” He watched her gulp down her food and wondered where would all the food go in her thin frame.

“With the new export bill, I thought you would be down in your office by four and trying to find a way to get more investors,” Yuri said in between her eating.  Jaejoong smiled.  Of course she would know what businessmen like him do.  She’s probably analyzing their moves most of her time.

“You’re really something.  No wonder you have Jung Yunho in your palms.”

Yuri stopped eating and glowered at Jaejoong.  This guy doesn’t know anything about her and Yunho.  “You don’t know anything about us.”

“Sure.  It’s all over the news,” he pointed at the corner of the newspaper he was reading where an article about her and Yunho was printed.

“Neither do those people,” she said.  She totally lost her appetite even though the waffle was superb.  She hates all the presumptions they are doing.

“Don’t worry.  I don’t believe a thing they say.”

Yuri smirked.  Why would she worry about what he thinks?  This guy is so full of himself.  “Thank you being open-minded,” she said sarcastically.

“Of course, how could you have a relationship with him when you woke up in my bed, wearing almost nothing and sitting in front of me at breakfast looking like the hottest thing in my shirt?”

Angels At War

Kwon Yuri, Jung Yunho, Im Yoona, Cho Kyuhyun, Shim Changmin, Seo Seohyun (SNSD, TVXQ), (side pairings: SeoKyu, JeTi, TaeSu)

Everyone was busy walking, trying to get home as the night slowly becoming colder and darker.  He could hear their thoughts faintly as they pass him by.  One elderly woman has her hands full with all the groceries with her.  A parcel fell from one of the paper bags she was carrying.  Yunho, without a second thought, picked it and gave it to the woman.  The woman gently smiled at him.

“Thank you.  What a nice young man.  Only a few are like you nowadays,” the grateful woman said.

Yunho smiled as the woman left.  He suddenly stopped at the middle of the pedestrian lane.  He could sense them.  His eyes darted everywhere to find the evil lurking amidst the mortal ones.  People may or may not see them, it depends on these devils.  As he turned to his right, he saw a black blur and felt an unusual chill behind him.  There are two of them?

He decided to continue walking.  It seems that Changmin was right, they, the angels, are their targets.  He let them tail him.  He could see their fast movements and he could very well feel their presence.  He was in his human form and this makes him vulnerable to the two.  When his heart started beating faster, he suddenly knew who the other devil was.  It didn’t surprise him when she appeared in front of him, making him abruptly stop.

No pointy horns, no hideous tail and no black wings.  A devil in the flesh with her dark, evil aura, oozing with something that can pull anyone towards her.  ‘I am an angel,’ he reminded himself.

A smirk formed on her beautiful face.  “You’re not scared, are you?”

“Quite the contrary… Yuri.

“You could go to hell with us then, you liar!  We could smell your fear from miles away so don’t even try to deny it.”


Kwon Yuri, Im Yoona, Seo Seohyun, Choi Sooyoung and the Kyu-line(Cho Kyuhyun, Shim Changmin, Choi Minho and Lee Jonghyun)

Four best friends are trying to live the legacy of their five excellent seniors who graduated from college with flying colors found themselves in ex-boyfriends-complex situations.  The known Kyu-line who is composed of also well-known guys in their fields messed the girls’ friendship as they found each of them falling in love with their girlfriend’s bestfriend.

See how they all find themselves falling in and out of love in someone who supposed to be off-limits according to the universal girls’ code: Don’t hook up with your bestfriend’s ex-boyfriend.


Kwon Yuri, Jung Yunho

High school never ends.  Bowling For Soup said it all.

Yuri thought she could never ask for more.  Her own house, her own car and a job she loves the most, she has them all.  Then her first boyfriend from high school ruined it all and showed up again sending her poor heart going crazy again.   That’s when she realized that only needs him to be complete.

There are just little things that complicates her ever after though.  Yunho, her ex-boyfriend, is now her boss’ boyfriend and he seems to be completely over her now.

Can she still have her ever after or would she just live with her own house, own car and now, dreaded job?

Money, Brain and Crown will be posted as soon as I am satisfied with it because it is the story that has been on my mind for years so it is excluded in the poll.

And if you have some story requests, feel free to post ’em!

Three Nights of Forever in Tokyo – Analysis

Three Nights of Forever in Tokyo is the fruit of my little obsession about Ryo Nishikido.  I won’t blab here about his gorgeousness because this entry intended for the story.  You may have noticed that I haven’t updated yet and I won’t make any excuses as to why.

For some time, I was head over heels with this guy named Ryo Nishikido from NEWS and as sentimental person as I am, I wanted to make a story to remind myself that I have once, or whatever, adored Ryo Nishikido.  I am not capable of one-shot and I have thought of bringing YunRi in Japan.  My imagination started to run wild and I have finally conceptualized the story of three strangers who found love in Tokyo.  It was almost the only way I could put Ryo in the story.

A few more readings about Ryo and the plot of the story was developed.  I didn’t want to make it OC so it was important to me.  I visioned him as the guy who knows what he has got and he’s confident about it.  He may have a sharp wit but he could always get away with it.  He is loyal to his friends and he would be loyal to those he trusts.  He’s not afraid to get dirty when it’s in the name of fun.  He may look happy-go-lucky but he’s a very determined person.

Yunho as you may have known now is a huge celebrity in Korea.  After getting into the entertainment industry without much thought, he missed the fun and craved for a normal day without flashing cameras coming out of nowhere.  He went to Japan out of rash decision and finally able to enjoy the life of a normal person.

Yuri, the determined person that she is in person, was heartbroken and decided to get over her first love.  She was a bit adventurous and I want to show it in this story.  She always thins about everything and she doesn’t rush into things when it’s necessary.  She is also easily pressured.  In a country that she is not familiar with and with limited knowledge about it, I want to envision how she would deal with it.

A little help.

So here’s the thing.  I am not familiar with Tokyo but I do have some knowledge about it.  I have some problems as to where they would have their time in Tokyo will be.  I want to feature as much of the city as I can.  So can you please help me with it?  Can you suggest some known places and I will do the researching.^^

Welcome To My Blog

Hello everyone!  This is an introductory entry for my official blogsite.

Some of you may know me as RedFlamer37 from AFF.  Sharing this blog to my readers means I am open to reveal my identity which took an ounce of time for me to think about.  I considered my privacy issues while thinking about it.  Then I told to myself that, yeah, I am not really big in AFF so why hesitate?  I am actually bigger in person though, literally.

You’ll get to read my thoughts on almost every random things I’d decide to write on.  But I think it’d be mostly about KPOP and anything I’d stumble onto.

For my AFF readers:

One of the reasons is also to make this blog an official update site for my stories.  I will still publish my works on AFF but I will post my progress of my stories here.  I will finally let you on in what my wild imagination is running through.  I will also post my previews and teasers here instead of giving it in some of the chapters.  It would be a tad tiresome to paste every preview or teaser on each stories.  You could also post your ideas, suggestions and comments here for everything.  And I am finally open to requests!  You know that I am a bit slow in updating so please bear with me.

I am so excited to hear from you guys!  You’ll have a glimpse of what I am really like and please don’t think bad about me, I am just crazy me.  Feel free to flood the comment box, I’d gladly read them all.

For my friends:

Ha!  I have finally put up a blog that I am willing to share.  What do you think?  I am thinking of moving some of the entries in my previous blogs here, specifically the entertaining ones.  You are free to say whatever you want.   Why don’t you congratulate me for stepping out of my cave?  ❤

For the lurkers and to you: