July Rain

I was on the verge of falling asleep with my blanket tossed somewhere on my bed to endure the unusual hot July.  My playlist was a mess, playing KPOP and some American music randomly.

When The Script’s We Cry started playing, I thought that it needed to rain.  I struggled to find a better position on my bed.  I am weird like that when I could have the whole bed for myself, I still found it hard to sleep.   It was the first day of July and I thought that it should really rain.  I don’t even get why that thought keeps pushing into my mind.  That’s when I moved all my pillows under my feet and felt one fell.   I didn’t bother to pick it up because there were three pillows left under my feet.

I was satisfied with my position and was starting to doze off but I still thought that it should rain because it’s the first day of July after all.  I didn’t notice that Britt Nicole’s Headphones was already playing until a soft tap on my roof caught my attention.  Everything seemed quiet except for Britt Nicole who was making wonders in my room with her voice and the soft taps on my roof and windows.

As  the soft taps became rhythmic, I somehow felt relieved and decided to pick up the fallen pillow at the foot of my bed.  I didn’t sleep for my drowsiness was apparently washed away by the soft rain.  I scanned my shelf for a good book to read but somehow I became contented as I sat on the edge of my bed, listening to country music blending to the rain’s rhythm.  I smiled to myself and thought how utterly blessed I have been.

I thanked God for the rain.  It gave me the simple joy and the time to reflect on my actions for the past months.  He has been very good to me.  Even my playlist seemed to come in sync with what I was feeling, switching songs just by Taylor Swift, Britt Nicole and Bethany Dillon.  “Feel good” has never been come alive before that moment.  Everything seemed just too perfect.

I am not saying that my life is perfect but I am very well satisfied with what I have.  God must really love me despite the weird relationship that we have.  I blunder most of the time but He still gives me chances and opportunities more than  I deserve.  He gave me trials and there have been many times I thought that I should just give up.  But He always gives me a way out of it.

I peeked through my window after the rain subsided.  I could smell the familiar scent of earth whenever you pullout the weeds in your garden.  The leaves were greener and everything seemed cleaner, free of dust.  I could hear the birds and see some on my windowsill.  I thought of scaring them off but backed out when the thought of immersing on the blessing of the new month won the latter thought.  This month, I will be a year older and I could only think of how grateful and blessed I am at the moment.  The rain was great way to start July.  It cleans all the negativity of the previous months.